THE MYTHOPOETIC MAGIC FLOW

For three days now I’ve been heavily immersed in magical poetry. As the nondualist that I’ve been, at least officially since 1984, this is not something that surprises me, as this particular interest in poetry, let’s just call it my personal sonic resonating flow, has had an even longer streak, at least since I was 7. That’s when I made an important decision:

I was going to be a poet.

Why on earth, some may ask, and did it happen? Firstly, good question, secondly, hell yes.

Like mother like daughter

Let’s take the first one: All that which we are is the sum of not only genetic inheritance, but also what we think our parents did or did not do to us, what they owed us, what they gave us, how they fucked us up, and how they loved us or hated us (my parents are both dead, hence the past tense).

Back in the days, before I decided to liberate my attention from investing too much energy into speculating about mother and father, I was very impressed one fine morning when both my parents were all over me, kissing me vigorously, calling me a genius, and I can’t remember what else falling into the awesome category.

I think I was 7, or thereabout. I did some drawings and then suddenly I had the urge to accompany my drawings with a text. I had a book of Romantic poetry around. I looked up some words – all rhymes – and got it all down on paper. My mother looked over my shoulder and asked me in an excited tone: ‘Did you do that?’ I said ‘yes’, believing that she was referring to my drawing.

Alas she wasn’t, I was to find out, when she rushed out of the room, and called father. He also looked at my concoction, called me a genius, and that was that. I seem to remember my face, quite clearly, my mouth wide open, and ready to object: ‘Err, wait, there seems to be some misunderstanding here. I did the drawing, not the poem, get it?’ But how do you go against your parents dancing already, calling you names, and praising themselves for their ability to create a prodigy? I mean, seriously. You just can’t ruin your parents’ experience of having their high expectations come true. They didn’t even have to wait more than 7 years.

So I said nothing. I let them believe that I was a genius poet, and that was that.

But this incident kept nagging me. I felt like a fraud. I felt like I was coerced into lying. This kept nagging me so much, that I have since had to go through I don’t know how many universities, all the way, and score all the highest degrees for basically the same interest: Poetry.

I ended up writing books and dissertations about it, I think of my cartomantic work as poetry, and I even wrote 2 collections of poems of my own – though it seems that only mathematicians get it, as my poems deal quite heavily with what in math is called complex analysis, or stuff about infinity, so help me god. To this day, number nerds send me private messages telling me how much my poetry has changed them. Be that as it may. I just say thank you, and then think of my father. He was a mathematician before he went cold on me, dead and buried not long after the celebrating episode above.

Grave poetics

Let’s take the second consideration. Although I have just said that I ended up a poet of sorts, I’m still not sure as yet about what a poet is. Not until I think about this relation: Poetry equals magic and magic equals poetry.

When I think of this I know what poetry means.

Let me give an example. I’ve just had a bunch of wonderful, magical people find a dead poet to serve them as a ghost companion in their work with the cards in my class in Cards and Magic. If anybody can help a diviner with sharp and penetrating insights, then it has got to be a poet.

I begin all my cartomantic classes and other with such games of find and seek: Not the holy grail – I leave that to my friend, Andrei Codrescu – but death. After all, not only are the best poets mad by definition, but they are heavily invested in death.

In some spiritual traditions there’s this saying going on: ‘Only the dead speak the truth.’ So here’s my logic: Poets are mad, because they dare to speak the truth, so they are already kind of dead. Just look at history. When was there ever a time when the dominant powers did something nice to truth, like elevate it to power and high status? No such chance. Truth has one fate only: It tends to die a horrible death. Our culture has decided. Our culture has also dictated: If you’re mad enough to speak the truth before you’re nine feet under, you must be a poet. Being a poet and speaking the truth amounts to the same thing, sooner or later: Dirt over your chest and a few amens at your grave.

Be that as it may

While my cartomantic student tribe is gathering now its poetic spirit, I found myself immersed into having to finish an academic essay on nature poet Gary Snyder and the shamanic beat. The paper was sent to the reviewers last night at 00.00, on the clock.

Today I had to prepare for oral exams in two days. One of the projects is about William Blake, another about oracular literature from the time the Romans hit the Druids in England, and the third about the mythopoeic idea of the triple goddess in contemporary liturgy.

As I was imparting some wisdom of my own in the form of giving an example of what to make of cards and dead poets – I can’t share it here, as that wouldn’t be fair to the cauldron in the private room where we brew some very specific magic – I did find myself sharing freely on social media a post that popped into my space on literary witches, a new comic by Horan and Kataiskala, referencing female poets.

Synchronous events such as these make me grasp the definition of ‘poet’ by way of observing how words jump in and out of the magical flow of life. Magic is our constant. What poets do is tap into this flow; stick their heads into it, and then shout back at us: ‘Hey, heed attention. You’re not dead yet. What do you spend your time on? I’m seeing that you’re not here, in the flow. I’m seeing that you’re wasting your time.’

Ask your cards

‘What do I waste my time on?’

‘What would happen if I stopped wasting my time?’

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I’ve shared my own cards today on a beautiful, related question. The interpretation stays a secret. But you can have here the dead poet I’ve conjured to help me out with it: Wislawa Szymborska.

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Image source: The Economist, Feb. 11, 2012

After I had done the reading of my cards, I looked at some of her poems. These lines from Dreams struck a magical chord, very apt to this flow:

And we—unlike circus acrobats,

conjurers, wizards, and hypnotists—

can fly unfledged,

we light dark tunnels with our eyes,

we wax eloquent in unknown tongues,

talking not with just anyone, but with the dead.

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  1. I found this in my email today , very well said. I like reading things that make usthink/move outside the square of entrapment.

  2. Camelia, when I was about three I got up early one Sunday morning and sat in the rocking chair just…being. My parents came and asked me what I was doing. I didn’t know how to express what I was doing, so I said I was thinking. Their response was a bit like your description of your parents–they thought it was precocious and cute. I felt uncomfortable, like I had lied, because I knew I was not thinking in the sense they thought. But I did not know how to describe what was actually taking place. My experience resonates with yours. I still sit in a chair sometimes, just being. Quite different from thinking. Thanks for your post.

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